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Season 50: Why I'm Telling It Now
At fifty, Jesse turns survival into language. This short film is the mission statement for Colors of My Pain: the armor, the masks, the Four Colors, and the moment he stopped asking what was wrong with him and started asking what happened to him.
Featured film
The House I'll Never Finish Cleaning
A reflection on houses, grief, shame, depression, and the rooms people judge before they understand.
Book moment
Amanda Still Fought for Me
A painful memory about protection, consequence, loyalty, and the weight one night can leave behind.
Chapter 5
The Sentence Ended, But My Past Kept Charging Interest
A look at the long aftermath of a sentence, the cost that followed, and the work of turning pain into language.
Four Colors
A Map to Heal Who You Are from What Happened to You
Red, Blue, Green, and Yellow become a language for understanding protection, connection, thought, care, conflict, and healing.